When I at look at the music industry today, I’m still confused as to where I claim to fit in. I am stuck in a world where Irving Berlin is King, where you don’t need more than a piano or a stage or a dream to make history. As singing is my only skill (is charisma a skill?), I am totally dependent on others to make music with me and for me. I don’t write. I don’t have the patience to master music software. I don’t play an instrument. I might thrive in an environment where a piano, a piano player and an enthusiastic attentive audience happen to be found in every living room, but that is certainly not the world we live in anymore. So when people say ‘Hey Bridgitte – you’ve got ‘IT’, I say to them sure, but IT isn’t really enough. How about a half million dollars to make an album with professional musicians and producers? How about being 32 and counting in an industry obsessed with ‘young talent’? YouTube is saturated. iTunes is saturated. People’s ears are saturated. Where is my spot on this crowded stage?
There are alot of talented people out there. I’m a one trick pony in a world of thoroughbred horses. It’s a damn good trick and I’m dead sure that David Foster is missing out on this pony ride. This has nothing to do with confidence. I sing as a way to connect with the world. I’m good at it. And people like it.
But the barriers are consuming. For a while I’ve been pretty determined to see if I could take it to the top. There is alot to be said for perseverance, I know that, though sometimes its seems like it’s all a matter of cash. With enough cash, almost anyone could make an album, work with the best and produce great music and get yourself out there. But that’s unrealistic in a world of dwindling resources. I’m becoming a hard core fan of simple living (like these guys), and sustainability. Not to be trendy, but in a real and true sense; our future on this planet counts on it.
For me it’s all or nothing. I don’t want to sing at weddings. It’s not fame I’m after. I play to win, not for the fun of the sport. I want to make an impact on the world in a large and positive way. I would use my success as a platform to enact change. THAT’S what drives me. The music is just a vehicle, as you can see, I’m not ‘artiste’. I sing cause I can, cause it forces it’s way outta me with little concern for what’s practical. When I sing, the passion you hear is not for the artform, it’s source is deep pain and it reaches for hope. That’s why i love singing old tunes. Lyrics that apply to real life, to real people, not simply propagating more nonsense in the world. Music, when hijacked to sell sex and images, is of no interest to me. I’d rather write a book. Or plant a garden. Some people have encouraged me to write a one-woman show and that idea always floats around in the back of my mind. How much would that cost?!
Life is short. I want to make every minute count. I want to make an impact. Can it be through music? Waiting for the freak chance that someone who’s someone out there will notice? Is making music videos and maintaining a Twitter account the best use of my time? After the first few hundred hits roll in, I always think, but who have I helped?